I’ve been planning a trip to see family since last year. I wanted to see my dad’s sister since I hadn’t seen her in over 20 years when she and two of my cousins came for a visit.
I got a message two weeks ago that my aunt had been admitted to the hospital, so I decided that I wouldn’t wait until summer to travel and would book my flight as soon as I got home. A few days ago, I was told my aunt had passed away. 💔
I’ve been talking about going to see her for too long, and there was always a reason why now wasn’t a good time. I’ve missed my chance to talk with her and share some laughs.
Unfortunately, it often takes losing someone you love to remember that life is short and there aren’t any guarantees. It’s so easy to build a stockpile of regrets and lost opportunities.
I hope that my aunt’s soul is at peace. I’m trying to seek comfort in the idea that she’s with my dad, her son, some of her brothers, and her parents.
I’m heartbroken for her family, especially her husband, my uncle. I can’t imagine what it’s like to lose your spouse after being together for a lifetime.
As a recovering control freak and excuse-maker, I can easily convince myself that I should wait for the perfect time before I do something. I am constantly reminded that there’s no such thing as the ideal time unless it’s the moment you get the idea.
I’m committing myself to stop overthinking things and remind myself that there’s nothing wrong with being spontaneous occasionally. Instead of looking for reasons why something has to wait, I will search for reasons why now is a perfect time. ❤️