In the past, I have struggled with being kind to myself. When I buy a gift for someone, I do not tend to allow cost to determine what I give. I tend to give gifts based on what the person wants or what they’ve said they need. When it comes to buying things for myself, however, I sometimes feel like I need to justify the money spent, as if I do not think I deserve it.
I do not know where that comes from. Actually, that is a lie, I know that it comes from my upbringing and conditioning to find a way to be satisfied with what I have and not demand anything else, because it’s not in the budget. While my financial position is not the same as it was when I was growing up, I often still operate from a place of lack, even when there’s an abundant well to draw from.
I have done a lot of work on myself when it comes to self-love and self-worth, but I still have moments when I struggle. Recently, I had to convince myself that I should invest in a new laptop. Now that I am doing more writing and plan to travel in the next month, I realized that I needed a computer that has decent battery power and is portable so I can do my work wherever I am without any hassles.
For a brief moment, I tried to convince myself that I did not need to spend the money on a new computer despite my recent frustrations with it. Thankfully, it didn’t take long before I gave my head a shake and asked myself what I would do if I found myself out of the country without a functional computer to do my work. Once I decided that I was ready to invest in a laptop, I found the perfect one for me, at a great price and I am writing this post on it now! 🙂
I find it amusing sometimes that it can be so easy to be kind to others, yet we struggle to be good to ourselves. We must find a way to give ourselves grace regardless of what is going on in our lives. We have to treat ourselves like we would treat a child as a way of being kinder to ourselves. I am not saying that we should indulge ourselves and spoil ourselves, but I don’t think we should deny ourselves things that we would give to others.
Be as good to yourself as you are to others. You deserve the same grace that you offer to friend, family and strangers. Do not deny yourself things because you don’t think you are worth it. If you know that giving yourself something can add value to your life and to others as well, you should not deny yourself those things. Tell yourself you are worth it, and you deserve it! ❤