I’ve read many inspirational and motivational books. I’ve gone to seminars and I’ve listened to CDs and mp3 recordings. If connecting to one’s higher self could be achieved by simple osmosis, I would be in a constant state of contentment. The reality, however, is that this is not the case.
This is not to say that I haven’t learned a lot or made significant changes in my life. I don’t think I could consider myself a life coach or pursue this profession if I didn’t think I had built a solid foundation for my own personal growth in all areas of my life. Lately, however, I feel like I’ve hit some kind of plateau if you will. What I find interesting is that the more self aware I become, the less tolerant I am when the ego tries to woo me back to that all too familiar place of unconscious living. I can no longer question why things aren’t progressing the way I want them to, because I already know the answer.
I’ve come to a point in my life where hearing the message and knowing it to be the truth is not enough. I feel like the time has come to put all of the lessons I have learned and the knowledge I have gained into practice in all areas of my life. Yes, I have already made a lot of conscious changes in my life, but I feel like I have made the “easy” ones so far, not really stepping out of my comfort zone.
The reality is that if I really want to strengthen my connection to the source of All That Is, with my Divine Source, I need to be more mindful in all that I do. I still catch myself reacting to things in a strong, unproductive way sometimes. I know that I still have a lot to do with regard to releasing expectation, as well as releasing the need to judge others or myself. While I have made a great deal of progress when it comes to forgiveness, I know that this is one area, where there is still a lot of work to be done!
A Course in Miracles has been a great tool that has helped me along my journey of self discovery and awareness. I started doing the daily lessons last year, and have almost completed them all. I plan to start all over again from lesson 1 because I feel that the lessons provided are so powerful and when applied to each day, they can really change the way in which you see the world, and those in it, as well as how you relate to it all.
I have made a commitment to put everything I’ve learned into practice on a daily basis. I really want to push myself beyond my normal limits. I need to challenge myself to make some not-so-easy changes in my life if I really want to experience the limitless potential of my life. In the last few years, I have exercised muscles I didn’t even know I had, both literally and figuratively speaking. I am in no way downplaying the progress that I have made. I now realize that the work I have done until now has been preparing me for the next stage of my life. This next phase of my life will be one where fear no longer controls my actions and the faith that everything is happening the way it should is what guides me in all that I do.
I am looking forward to seeing where this will all lead. I learned a long time ago that change is not something to fear, but rather something to be embraced. I am optimistic about what the future holds for me, and I am excited about becoming more intimately acquainted with my authentic self. ♥
